This page is where the becoming actually happens. Each card below is a practice I am working on — sometimes for the first time, sometimes for the hundredth. The honest version, not the highlight reel. Most months I add one new entry to each. Think of it as the closest thing on this site to my actual private notebook.
Yoga
since 2024 · daily
I have been holding too much in my body for too long. Working towards a 200-hour teacher training in Sept 2026, and beyond it, towards teaching, not just practising.
19 May 2026 Held headstand against the wall for forty-five seconds. Three months ago I could not get my legs off the ground. This is not a small thing.
02 May 2026 Pigeon pose is teaching me that some grief lives in the hips.
Because I forgot what I had seen. The camera is a small device that makes you slow down for long enough to actually look. I am learning composition, light, and the discipline of not deleting photos before I have looked at them properly.
17 May 2026 Shot the chai vendor at the corner. His hands, not his face. The hands knew more about him than the face would have.
28 Apr 2026 Finally understand the exposure triangle. ISO is the friend you call when there is no light.
12 Apr 2026 Bought a 35mm prime. People say “you can’t zoom with this lens.” That is the point.
Because leaving parts of me as I grew into the role of a wife and mother meant I was becoming someone else while also missing my old self. I want to feel stronger. 34 is not late.
May 2026 First coach was Suhas. Now with Coach Naveen for advanced techniques.
daily Muscle pain is not enough of a reason to stop something that makes me feel this strong.
My voice is more capable than I have allowed it to be. Letting it take form into melody instantly makes me feel better. Singing out of tune is not an option.
pre-class Humming Shaktishree Gopalan’s songs — her voice feels soothing and encouraging.
May 2026 Filling the daily musings even before the class starts. Believer in do-it-yourself.
My marketing work is good. But reporting and data storytelling are not. Brushing up on business acumen and BI visualisations — SQL, Power BI — to tell those stories myself, not lean on AI charts.
2nd wk May 2026 Began SQL at ExcelR. Replacing memorising with logically remembering the commands — treating it as another language helped immensely.
2nd wk Apr 2026 Lectures plus Data with Baraa for Power BI depth. Seeing data through a different lens now.
Not a parenting influencer. Raising a 12-year-old as a single mother taught me how strong I can be — and how badly I needed systems. Sharing what works, for any single parent reading.
recent The scooty that goes at 45kmph slows to 25 when he’s with me. The ride is the point, not the speed.
recent He cut a tiramisu for his post-birthday cake. Said nothing about not celebrating. It stung. I kept quiet too.
honest He villainises his dad sometimes, thinking I want him to. One of my biggest method failures.
It is easy to take sides. It is harder to stay centred and think of both humans, the child, the whole institution. Some of this work is too tender for the internet — I will share only what is mine to share, and what might be useful to another woman in this exact moment.
23 May 2026 Still trying to find a therapist. Online profiles feel super fake. Not speaking to me at all.
Feb 2026 Found a new lawyer at Bangalore High Court. This time I knew exactly what to say — nothing to weaponise.
Oct 2025 First lawyer meeting. Questions made me ask: am I speaking for this marriage, or for myself?
Started as a diary writer in 2005 because my thoughts were too loud and it felt unsafe to share with any human. I have always been a writer who paused when she didn’t feel like writing. Trying to break that — in public.
20 May 2026 Drafted the About page for this site. Felt so good about it, finally.
06 May 2026 Realised I can write an essay in 90 minutes if I stop trying to be clever in the first paragraph.
18 Apr 2026 Wrote in my journal for about 1.5 hours. The starting point of all this.
These cards get updated weekly. Mostly on Saturday or Sunday — while everyone is partying, I am slowly building a corner of my own world that preserves parts of my life that might otherwise never make it online.